Upon the mirror i looked

Into never-ending nothingness

From this, what i took

Was everlasting hapiness

Because nothingness is what i love most

Aside from ubiquitous tranquility

And i rejoice that my body is the host

Of an abundance of negativity

Rejoice, for this is a normal quality

And normality is what i strive for

Escaping neutrality rapidly

But i cannot run anymore

Shattering.

Metaphoric knives slice away at my retinas

Time elusive as hollow fingers point towards me

Screams evaporate frigidly from my half-empty glass

Shrouding my consciousness strenuously

Repeating

I’ve lived through this before

Retreating

But now I have unlocked the door

Grinded

Into a pile of gravel

Blinded

Just as the secrets unravel

Why is it that we keep going to the past?

Reminiscing, rolling on the grass

Pondering about the things that weren’t meant to last

Have we all grown up a little bit too fast?

Living in the past it seems

Will inevitably lead to my demise

Reliving all those hopeless dreams

And foolish acts that i cannot revise

Truths untold reach not an ear astray

But lies so bold can only satisfy

A mind as warped as mine disdained

By the feelings that i cannot defy

Yet aimlessly do i keep on marching on

Through endless feelings going forward in reverse

Obtaining knowledge that is seemingly gone

While into a state of perpetual indifference i traverse

If we indeed grew up too fast,

I’d like to freeze time for a while

Leave behind all that has passed

And greet the future with a smile

A simple thought to leave one’s lips

Yet insanely difficult to achieve 

For onto my being, the past now grips

Leaving nothing real for me to believe

Barraged with a Downpour of consternation
Frantically drowning without resuscitation
I explore the new planes in the depth of my being
While in search of the part of myself i’m not seeing 
Seems to me like I’m hollow yet overfilled with confusion
My exterior image nothing more than illusion
Lost in my heart that is my lost in my mind
Perhaps, a withering victim of uncertainty’s bind 
An Exit sign far from candid eyes
Dying to live truthfully in a deceasing lie
“I wouldn’t have it any other way”
The thought that’s repeated as i go through the day
Hastily sluggish the hours slow dance while i wait  
Wait for the deafening silence to finally abate
That very silence that rendered my tranquility stained
Like needles in my eardrums, a resonating pain
Traversing with a downpour of consternation flowing
With frivolous indecision as to where i am going

Looking back profoundly

One comes to realize

Time escapes us rapidly

Like a speeding train, in which we mobilize

Derailed and headed for destruction

At the collision point, life’s expiry 

We have but mere seconds to live

Live them advantageously

Taking chances, making choices

Which in time lead to a better outcome

Taking control of the time you have left

Being negatively influenced by no one

Time is a fascinating thing

So many loathe and love it equally

Behind us, everything we thought was new

Now seemingly an antiquity 

Set your mind free

Learn to create rather than to imitate

For later down the path of life,

You’ll regret the chances missed once it becomes too late